As I posted previously in Eli’s birth story, Eli and I were having problems with breastfeeding. It wasn’t working out very well and I was in excruciating pain with cracked and bleeding nipples. Ouch! There were many times that I felt like giving up. I didn’t think I could handle the pain I was going through. The turning point came one night when I was breastfeeding Eli and the pain became more than I could handle. By the time he was finished eating, I was crying out in pain and continued to cry for over 45 minutes. My wonderful husband couldn’t bear to watch me go through so much pain He told me that he would like it if we could feed Eli bottles for the rest of the night until we could get to our lactation consultant meeting, which was the next night. I reluctantly agreed to feed Eli formula, since I didn’t have a breast pump. I felt like such a failure. I had successfully breastfed two other babies, but it was just not working out this time.